i want...

the word "smooth" to have an e on the end. i like the ending e, it's soft, like an ending h on a feminine name (hannah is totally my favorite). if soothe gets an e, and has the same sounds, then how come smooth doesn't get one? it is, in the weird non-etymology in my head, much closer to soothe than sooth. sooth sounds... like a dental problem. or at least like something that should be concerned with teeth, like... like a fake archaic old british dude trying to exclaim "forsooth and lack a day!" around his tremendous dental disabilities. not that that's probably a phrase; although louise rennison does use it, and she's awesome. but a lot of her humor comes with the slang she only occasionally pulls from the real world. well, that and "our lord sandra."

and if i can write this many words about a word, with only an economist's training (so, none in this realm), is it any wonder i managed to give an hour-long presentation today and sing to myself the entire time*? it's like my brain uses up too much space by separating off parts to wander around at will, and doesn't conserve nearly enough for remembering matrix algebra. because eigenvectors? the word itself makes me feel like i should have some sort of green liquid oozing out of my ears, because something critical has melted. and i still can't tell you exactly what they do, even though they form the foundation of a lot of what i do. depending, of course.





*ironically, or not so much, the song was "tune out" by the format. whom i adore.