crush residue

you are so over them. only some part of you doesn't listen to the rest of you and you still catch yourself obsessing, even months later. unreasonably many months later. you watch yourself from outside yourself and wonder what the fuck you are thinking; but you can't stop it, not even if you rehash all the reasons that you are, indeed, done with it. why is it so difficult to truly, completely cut and run, especially when you want to? it gets in the way of moving forward, this unreasonable focus on the past. the residual crush: yet another thing i could definitely do without.